Look to God

My personal theme for the year is Look to God. I would like to place more emphasis in my life into going to God first about things. Last year was a bit difficult. After finishing my M.A., I thought I would be back in the classroom last fall. I was trusting God and doing everything I knew to do. I filled out applications and applied for more than 50 different positions. I even did a few interviews. I did that all spring, summer and into the fall. I had followed the direction of the Father for when to complete my degree yet in the fall I did not have my own classroom. Instead I began working for 3 different school districts and one private school. Because I was subbing I didn't work for a whole month, but God took care of me and my needs were met. At this time, I was still feeling like I had missed it somewhere.

I was so nervous to sub that first day. In fact, I had a few opportunities prior but chickened out. In retrospect, it was partly due to some circumstances beyond my control. The first job I excepted was in a Kindergarten classroom. I thought it would be doable because of my Pre-K experience. When I was looking for the room, I ran into my fourth grade teacher and she remembered me. She called me by name and showed me to the classroom I would be subbing in. What are the chances of that? I was subbing in the school district I attended grade school in but not at the school I attended. I had also not followed the directions to the classroom that I had been given very well. Looking back I can see God's Hand upon that morning. He lead me right to someone who encouraged me and helped me.

After subbing these last four months I can tell you I have seen God's hand more than once. He has sent me to so many different classrooms. Not every day has been easy but there are many that I am so glad I got to experience. I have gotten to use a SMART board, be a library media specialist for a day, meet lots of different students, experience what it was like to be an English Language Learner, be in classrooms from K-6 grade, and become more confident in my ability. It has been an adventure. If I had gotten the opportunity to be back in my own classroom I would have taken it. I didn't miss it...I just relied on what I thought this fall was going to be.